Fear is just pent-up beauty

To transform fear into love we have to embrace the fear and see it as a gift.  Resisting, denying or trying to run from fear as if it were a fire-breathing dragon will only exhaust us in the end. We cannot run forever.  When we turn to face the dragon we see the gift it holds for us. The gift is that fear is just pent-up beauty.  Fear holds blocked energy, blocked life that has been festering and not going anywhere.  When we accept the fear, that blocked energy is released and transformed and we are free to fly!

Let your soul guide you

Often, upon first waking up in the morning I am given my writing assignment for the day.  When I awoke this morning I was in the purity of my soul, still in the surrendered state of sleep, but somewhat conscious.  I allowed myself to stay in that surrendered state and consciously experience the luscious feeling of being at one.  As the conscious surrender continued I felt like I was in a warm liquid bath, being embraced by unconditional love.  Then another part of me thought, I “should” get up and start my day.  As soon as I had that thought I started to come out of surrender.  I left the state of oneness when my ego spoke up and wanted to take over.  I now had become two – I entered back into duality (ego & soul).  I could actually feel my soul not wanting to take the back seat.  Then I felt/heard the words to a Sting song….”Let Your Soul Be Your Pilot”.  I wondered what I would choose to do if I let my soul guide me.  What would I choose to do if I allowed my soul to be in the driver’s seat and sent my ego to the back seat?  I immediately became aware that I would make very different choices, not only throughout my day but in the direction of my life.

So, I allowed my soul to take the driver’s seat and gracefully got out of bed and effortlessly glided downstairs.  I mindfully made my coffee and chose to sit down at my laptop to share my given writing assignment.  I am realizing that in order for my soul to be my guide I have to consciously choose it.  As I am writing this I am aware of the ego wanting to take over, it does not like being in the back seat.  I gently try to ease its fear (it is full of fear), I assure it that it has a purpose and will not disappear completely, but that it should get comfortable with being in the back seat.

How can you tell if you are allowing your soul to guide you?  If your soul is not guiding you than what is? 


(Let Your Soul Be Your Pilot video by Sting)

Let your soul be your pilot
Let your soul guide you
He’ll guide you well

When you’re down and they’re counting
When your secrets all found out
When your troubles take to mounting
When the map you have leads you to doubt
When there’s no information
And the compass turns to nowhere that you know well

Let your soul be your pilot
Let your soul guide you
He’ll guide you well

When the doctors failed to heal you
When no medicine chest can make you well
When no counsel leads to comfort
When there are no more lies they can tell
No more useless information
And the compass spins
The compass spins between heaven and hell

Let your soul be your pilot
Let your soul guide you
He’ll guide you well

And your eyes turn towards the window pane
To the lights upon the hill
The distance seems so strange to you now
And the dark room seems so still

Let your pain be my sorrow
Let your tears be my tears too
Let your courage be my model
That the north you find will be true
When there’s no information
And the compass turns to nowhere that you know well

Let your soul be your pilot
Let your soul guide you
Let your soul guide you
Let your soul guide you upon your way…

An Open Heart

I have been pondering on Love & Fear / Expansion & Contraction.  I am coming to realize that any time I allow myself to contract (go into fear) on some level I am believing that by contracting into fear I will be able to protect myself from harm.  The bargain that is made in that moment is I lose consciousness by believing in the illusion of fear.  I am actually giving it power.  It takes a tremendous amount of energy to shift back and forth between love and fear, the opening and closing of the heart.

We cannot expect that fear will not challenge us, it will (unless and until we become permanently enlightened). But, if we do not resist it, if we relax into it, it will pass through us (after all it is transient and illusionary) and dissolve into love which is eternal and always waiting to welcome us back home to our true self.

What would happen if we learned to love fear?  What if we fully accepted it?  Is it a true statement that love conquers all (including fear)?  I think that is a true statement.

Is it possible to keep an Open Heart even in the face of fear?  Can we learn to let Love protect us instead of fear?

“In Venice in the Middle Ages there was once a profession for a man called a codega–a fellow you hired to walk in front of you at night with a lit lantern, showing you the way, scaring off thieves and demons, bringing you confidence and protection through the dark streets. ”  Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love

May Love be your “codega”



Wholeness not Perfection

“The challenge is not to be perfect, it’s to be whole”

~Jane Fonda~

Isn’t that the truth??  That’s what it’s all about.  Until and if we become whole in body, mind and spirit we will always feel a sense of dis-ease.  When I use the term dis-ease in connection to wholeness I am relating it to the soul, a feeling of being at dis-ease in the soul, not at peace.  There is no denying the feeling.  You know if you are at peace in the soul or not, you know if you are feeling whole or not.  The trick about achieving wholeness is you cannot achieve it by trying to be perfect.  This will actually take you on a detour down a road that does not lead to wholeness.  One way of knowing if you are trying to be perfect is judgment.  If you find yourself judging yourself or others, it is a sure sign that you are “trying” to be perfect.  Wholeness comes through acceptance and love.  This does not mean that you do not use discernment of what is right or wrong for you, it means you do not judge something as being right or wrong for everyone.  Another sign of attempting perfection is blame.  There is no one or nothing to blame.  It is our responsibility alone to move towards wholeness.  We do not get there by self blame or blaming others.  The other key difference between “trying” to be perfect and wholeness is the “trying”.  Wholeness does not require trying, it requires “allowing”.  We simply allow, let go, and let our wholeness rise up into our conscious awareness.  When we awaken to our innate wisdom, purity of spirit is revealed.  This is our birthright. 

Emotionally whole

  • getting in touch with and taking personally responsibility for getting my basic needs met every day
  • sharing my concerns and worries with people who will listen, and in turn being there for them
  • live within a healthy balance between my work, passions, creative outlets, chores, relaxation, nourishment and exercise.
  • Not neglecting any of those areas and making course corrections as needed.

Physically whole

  • taking care of my physical health through proper rest, exercise, hygiene, stress reduction, sex and diet
  • owning my energy and using it in the areas I choose to focus on
  • taking care of my appearance in order to feel, enjoy and attract healthy energy

Spiritually whole

  • embracing and having spiritual needs met, including: feeling connected to the spiritual realm (meditation/prayer are some tools for connecting to the spiritual realm. Also being connected to a spiritual community)
  • surrendering to “what is” brings serenity.  Learning to respond and not react in unhealthy ways to the stresses faced every day.  Not allowing yourself to be pulled into pieces by the diverse stresses of money, time, relationships, etc. (not trying to control all the things beyond your control).  When we start to feel fragmented by being in the world, we have to remember our truth, that we are spiritually whole.