Sweet Surrender


Fear of being controlled and fear of losing control creates a futile attempt of trying to be in control.  All of this is based on fear/ego.

The need for control is an addiction.  It is an addiction that most people have.  The need for control is probably the biggest Sin (Self-inflicted non-sense) / Fear (False evidence appearing real) that we have as human beings.  It is what stands in the way of a life of love, joy and peace.

It is this control factor that prevents us from being able to surrender and the paradox is the only way to find that which we seek (love) is to surrender.

This is the ultimate wake up, to understand that there is nothing to find through seeking outside ourselves. Grace is knowing we are not lost and never were.  Surrender, acceptance and forgiveness are all the same experience. It is through surrender, acceptance and forgiveness that Grace enters our experience.

We don’t know we are love so we start seeking it outside ourselves.  Our attempt to do this is why we fall into false belief’s that someone or something is trying to control us or we fall into the false belief that we can control someone or something outside of ourselves.

This fear of losing control and being controlled usually begins when we are very young.  It is what causes us to build up ego defenses.  This fear is what disconnects us from our true nature.  We forget that we are love.  So in a way we become unnatural and we start to create a pretend self, a false self.  We then actually start to grieve for our true self (but we are not consciously aware of this).  That is how all addiction starts.  This grieving for the true self creates suffering.  We bounce around in the stages of grief, anger, denial, bargaining, and depression, but we never reach the final stage of grief which is acceptance.

When we know we are love we can surrender to what is.  We are no longer seeking love because we know we already have it, we are it.  Our true nature is love.

Sweet Surrender – John Denver

Lost and alone on some forgotten highway
Traveled by many, remembered by few
Lookin’ for something that I can believe in
Lookin’ for something that I’d like to do with my life

There’s nothin’ behind me and nothin’ that ties me
To somethin’ that might have been true yesterday
Tomorrow is open; right now it seems to be more
Than enough to just be here today

And I don’t know what the future is holdin’ in store
I don’t know where I’m goin’, I’m not sure where I’ve been
There’s a spirit that guides me, a light that shines for me
My life is worth the livin’, I don’t need to see the end

Sweet, sweet surrender
Live, live without care
Like a fish in the water
Like a bird in the air

Are Soul & Spirit different?


Are Soul and Spirit different?  Yes, in duality they are, but in oneness they are not.

This is my morning contemplation.

I have been trying to forgive myself for creating some recent suffering.  This is what created the suffering… I took something personal,  I tried to change something outside of myself,  and I judged.

I listen a lot to others because I am not usually in a state of trying to figure things out. I usually just am without much of an agenda other than to be present. I am in a state of surrender. I listen because I have compassion. But truly if we are not trying to figure things out would there be that much to talk about. If we do not talk about the past, about others or about what we are trying to achieve in the future…..what’s left to talk about? If we were fully present we would be more in a state of experiencing what is instead of what was or what will come?

This is what created my suffering… I was talking about the past, I was talking about someone else and I wanted to know what the future held, all of this was coming from fear.

As human beings we are becoming aware that all is One…all is Spirit….but most of us are not living it yet, so we are still seeking it. This prevents us from being present and it also keeps us going back and forth between love and fear. Fear is a contraction and love is an expansion. This process of contraction and expansion is like a birthing process, we are trying to be born into Spirit. We know that duality is not the absolute truth and we cannot help but to seek the truth until we become the truth, until we return to Oneness of Spirit.

The Soul is what appears as a unique form, it is what’s evolving. It’s what is trying to remember it’s oneness with Spirit.

Each of us thinks we are separate from each other and separate from Spirit. We do not know that the ocean is in the drop of water, we think we are just a drop of water separate from the ocean.

The Soul is what appears as temporary but is evolving in it’s remembrance that it is eternal, that it is one with Spirit. Spirit is Causeless, it has no beginning or end. When we become one with Spirit in human form, we are off the wheel of karma, we are not reactionary, we no longer experience cause and effect because we are one with the Causeless. But if and until that happens we will keep having reactions to what appears to be an external cause to the effect we are experiencing.

The Soul is constantly moving towards Spirit. When the Soul evolves to remembering it’s oneness with Spirit, it wakes up, it merges into oneness. It no longer is separate. This is experienced as Pure Awareness.

Awakening does not come easy because we want to cling to our separateness thinking it is the true self. We feel we will disappear if we let go of the false self.

Spirit has no qualities, it is not good or bad, right or wrong, it just is. It is Pure Unconditional Love.

Oneness is our natural state.

All experience is experienced by the Soul, but when you wake up, there is no more experiencer, there is just experience.